Archive for August, 2003

Stupor

Wednesday – 28 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 05 Bhadra 1925 – 27 August 2003

well i have deleted my previous post against all my beliefs of never deleting a post. lets just say that a person shouldnt blog when he is more emotionally distressed than he has EVER been. tonight was the worst i am calm now. DAMN IT !!! now i can understand why you guys say never blog drunk. i am calm now.

I am SUCH a slut. ;)

Making Out

Tuesday – 27 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 04 Bhadra 1925 – 26 August 2003

*rather explicit sexual content coming up, proceed only if you are interested in gay sexual activities*

well the last post was sudden. he had just left. i was VERY shaken after the whole thing. and i was excited as hell. hence the post.

well here it is. i wont tell who it was but it was someone whome i had known for a long time. well he knows i am gay. and he always jokes about it. so do i. that was until today. i was just lounging around. he was there.

suddenly he comes to where i am sitting and starts to caress my chest. i was like WHOA ! what the FUCK ! i didnt say it i only thought it.

the thing is i have known him long enough that there is nothing there. i dont feel anything for him. although he is VERY cute.

well so i didnt stop him. he played a little. caressing on my chest and arms. i was too big a slut to stop him.

well i got too turned on and i played around with him as well. we did this for some time.

then he suddenly took off his shirt. another WHOA ! and what the FUCK ! but again. too big a slut to stop another man from enjoying sexual activities with me.

well after some time i decided to caress him as well. i did for 1 minute then he told me. jalal you know. xyz is better at this than you are. this was the defining moment. the test. the poiint where i should have made a stand.

but like i said. too big a slut. i didnt even mind him saying that i continued. i am a BIG slut.

well after a while i noticed myself taking off my shirt. i was lying on my back. a point to keep in mind. when you are lying on your back. you CANNOT take off a tshirt easily. it takes a LOT of pulling and pushing. well i did manage to take it off eventually. by that time i have proven to myself that i am a moron and cannot take off my own shirt.

well then we played around for another 30 mins. ;) then we kissed ;)

I KNOW !!!

we kissed for about 1 min. then we all of a sudden broke into convulsive laughter. and stopped. we put on our clothes.

so i have lost half of my virginity. but my cherry(if i may call it that) is still intact ;0 waiting to be lost.

so i have shared with you completely my first time when i did stuff with a guy. although there is no future. it is just sex. but it was nice. thank god he also knows this. so there are no issues left over.

well now that i have shared all this with you. then the two people who couldnt control themselves and forced me to tell mine have to tell me their stories as well of thier first times.

also those of you who think there was too much detail ;) well when i will have first i will give details but within reasonable limits. :) no name calling and no tedious(sic) explanations :)

oh and after listening to me. one of my very good friends told me. that i am the biggest slut in asia ;) YAY! first in 3.5 billion humans :) that has GOT to be a record. ;)

Kissing

Tuesday – 27 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 04 Bhadra 1925 – 26 August 2003

OH MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!! ON MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!!

ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!!

I MADE OUT TODAY !!! VERY VERY UNEXPECTED !!! VERY VERY !!! I NEVER SAW IT COMING !!!!!!!!!

WE KISSED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALSO WE CARESSED AND CUDDLED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM NOT A VIRGIN ANY MORE !!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Return

Monday – 26 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 03 Bhadra 1925 – 25 August 2003

hi all. extermely sorry for not posting for some time. a lot of things came up. i was slightly busy. life was going along.

well i am going to try and post regularly and not scare you like that.

so till the next post. jalal.

5 Things

If you want to participate, leave a comment saying “interview me” or send me an e-mail.

I will respond by asking you five questions – each person’s will be different.

You will update your journal with the answers to the questions.

You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.

When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

1. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live and why?

well i would choose karachi. my city. it is large and complete. and also because i love living here gives me the complete experience.

2. What do you want to be remembered for after you die?

i would like to be known as a man who fought for people rights. just the rights of all the people all over the world. against all oppression.

3. What is the most exciting thing you’ve ever done?

honestly. ;). well i tried climbing a hill face without any proper gear. the ground was wet. i had to hold onto grass to not fall off. the grass was coming out of the soil and my hands were slipping above a 200 ft precipice. i have no idea how i am alive. most exciting.

4. What do you most like about yourself?

i do not pretend to be something i am not. thank god.

5. If you could have dinner with anyone in the world, who would it be and why?

mehdi hassan. too much of an idol to not choose him over all others.

I got my questions from Crash who go this from Mykull who got his from Jean, who got hers from Trish, who got hers from the Green Fairy, who got hers from Feministe, who got hers from Erica, who got hers from Kathy, who got hers from Cornelia and sadly the trail goes dry after that.

Joke

Wednesday – 21 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 29 Sravana 1925 – 20 August 2003    

there are times when you want to say something. but it comes out as something else. sometimes leading to hysterical laughter by all present. i live on the internet a lot. sometimes this happens on the internet as well. when you type something incorrectly.

today was the biggest of such mistakes. i actually fell down from my chair laughing.

the was chatting with a fellow gay guy on mirc. when all of a sudden.

[23:55:14] sorry HUGE lad … will talk to you later when it is under control …

[23:55:20] sorry HUGE lag … will talk to you later when it is under control …

[23:55:21] :)

[23:55:35] i am sure the one on top had a completely different meanign ;)

[23:55:40] ahhahahahahhaha

[23:55:45] actually come to think of it …

[23:55:48] haahahahhahaahahha

[23:55:51] ROFLMAO …

[23:55:57] sorry HUGE lad … will talk to you later when it is under control …

[23:57:00] oh my god …

[23:57:48] that is the best slip that i have had on mirc …

the other guy was VERY amused. i later blamed it on the witching hour ;) midnight.

Non Violence

Tuesday – 20 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 28 Sravana 1925 – 19 August 2003   

i am very anti violence. i oppose all forms and formats of violence. today was hell for me. two attacks on two different parts of the world. the un compound in iraq. a bus station in israel.

must we do this. must we kill each other like wild dogs in the african jungle. must we act like animals in our dealings with one another. snarling at each other till the other shuts up. or pouncing on them to end it once and for all.

i am completely and catagorically against the us led invasion and occupation of iraq. i am completely against the israeli occupation of palestinian territory. but i do not like to see innocent civilians killed. i might for once settle for the killing of military personnel. even that with the understanding that since are taking parts in wars they may die. but not otherwise. i will not agree with the killing of even one civilian.

it is sick and perverted how civilians get killed. i am sickened to see children being killed. in israel by both the israeli forces in the name of removing terrorist threats and by the palestinians in the name of jewish oppression. i am sick of how these two sides keep killing innocent people without any particular desire or try for peace.

i am sick and tired of pakistan and india barking at each other like dogs. our leaders havent even provided us with the basic necessities. clean drinking water and proper sanitation are a boon not the norm. and the governments have the audacity to talk about nuclear holocausts.

i just want an end to this. i want an end to terrorism by the palestinians and state sposored terrorism by the israelis. i want and end to the rantings and raving by the indians and pakistan. i want peace in cyprus, northern ireland, liberia, nigeria, algeria, aceh, assam, kashmir, solomon islands, bosnia, kosovo and chechnia. i want peace.

i hate bigots. i hate extremism. i hate murder. i hate rape. i hate arson. i hate hate. i want peace to flow like the wind and spread its message “gali gali chaman chaman” (street to street and garden to garden) i want us to stop killing and start to build. build. build. build.

agar hay jazba e tameer zinda … (if the will to build is alive …)

Similarities

Tuesday – 20 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 28 Sravana 1925 – 19 August 2003  

chatting with a friend of mine i learnt that he was also VERY fond of eric clapton. it was like a divine wind blowing all over. i dont usually meet clapton fans. when i do i am very happy for them. well we discusses the way his guitar moves. and the way he has a knack of making your heart move. my particular favourite is “old love”. this song can do wonders for me. it is a saying in urdu that music is the food of the soul. listening to clapton i will say that it is the food the ointment and the pleasure of the soul. the way he starts layla and how it flows. beautiful.

i am very moved by music. i am sure people who read my blog regularly will know this. but music for me is not just related to the sense of sound. for me in encompasses the sense of touch. for me music is more than music. it is a whole concept. of lyrics. of the voice. of the instruments. of the beats. of the flows. clapton is one of the few people who comes to my standards. he is someone who is excellent in his field.

mr eric clapton. i salute you!

TV

Tuesday – 20 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 28 Sravana 1925 – 19 August 2003  

well i am sure you will realize what i did all day after you read my post.

well here is a listing and a rating of popular tv sitcoms that i came across today and during the past few weeks.

Ally McBeal : A must see. 7/10

Angel : One of the guys is cute. Otherwise do not watch. 2/10

Buffy the Vampire Slayer : None of the guys are cute. Do not watch. 0/10

Baywatch Hawaii : YUM!. Otherwise do not watch. 3/10

Futurama : Very nice. 8/10

Malcom in the Middle : A must see. 9/10

Dharma and Greg : Very nice. 7/10

Cheers : Interesting. Woody is VERY cute. 5/10

Friends : Must see. 9/10

Simpsons : Very nice. 6/10

Becker : Must see. 4/10

Everybody Loves Raymond : Very nice. 8/10

Frasier : Must see. 10/10

Rickshaw rolling down a bridge

Tuesday – 20 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 28 Sravana 1925 – 19 August 2003 

today i am at my cousins. he just gave his exam so i came over because he would be alone otherwise. well he is a very nice guy. the kindof person that you can spend time with without getting bored to death and you will not want to leave his company.

that said i will proceed. the thing is i am a person who likes to joke a lot. well at times i forget that you are not supposed to go crazy with someone you just met. well i was on the bus. the conductor said something which i thought was something else. i joked about something. he got serious and said something. i again took it as something else. well lets just say he told me i was an idiot. not very nice when 15 people are hearing you being called that in a bus.

mental note to self : never joke with someone you have met the first time. and if you do, make fun of yourself, NOT his education.

also when you are at the top of a bridge. and the rickshaw stops and you and the driver get out. HOLD IT !!! maybe the driver thinks you will hold it and that is why he just left it. and when the thing starts hurtling down. you will have to run like a fucking horse on fire to catch it. which i did. and when you get to it. it will have a HUGE impetus. believe me. so stop it when it is easier.

mental note to self : contain the situation when you can. do not let it hurtle out of control.

well thank god i had a nice post today. i will see you later. bye yall. have fun at least someone should.

oh and yes another thing. my cousins friends came over. one of them made a point at me. he was known as the kindof person who is good at such things. well lets just say that after half an hour the other 4 people were falling out of their chairs while i made that guy look like a complete idiot.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!! the wonders of being a bitch and feeling good about it as well.