Archive for September 27, 2003

well needless to say i having HORRIBLE problems ad…

well needless to say i having HORRIBLE problems adjusting to family life after college. i know i know everyone in pakistan lives like this. but i cant. its done. i cant. its horrible ok. you dont know. it is horrible.

they are always expecting things from me which i cannot give. i mean come on i am not a prophet or god. they want me to be this and that and to do this and that. i cant do all that. i got used to an independent life after college. i cant do it.

and since i cannot come upto their expectiation which i think i should. i feel like a loser and a failure as a son and a brother. damnit. i hate all this. i actually feel like i am failing all of them. i feel like i am not coming upto any of my responsibilites.

yes you are right. i did have a fight with my mom today as well. but today she won. she told me that i should be living alone coz i am a liability and not an asset. she told me that i am not at all street smart and even her daughters are better at guy things. then she told me that i have only hurt her and never been a source of comfort to her. blah blah blah. long story short and my own interpretation. she wished she had some other person for a son. GOOD!

and as soon as i finished the last post i heard a …

and as soon as i finished the last post i heard a song by nazia hassan.

she was a wonderful singer. i think she was the first to introduce popular (pop) music into pakistan at a larger scale and level. her songs are evergreen. every pakistani in my age group will remember her songs like childhood memories …

sooraj chalta hay …… aap jaisa koi …… zara chehra to …… dhere dhere …… ooee ooee :) …… sun meray mehboob sun

and so many others. these are songs that if you start to sing with someone in my age group they will start at it for no reason at all. it is a common cultural bond between pakistanis of my age. nazia hasan and her music. the many many super hits of our childhood. the songs that we heard over and over all over the media and on countless cassette players all over pakistan.

nazia hasan was a pakistani cultural icon. it is so unfortunate that she is with us no more. and it is so unfortunate that she died so very far away from her land.

may allah make pakistan good enough for pakistanis especially those who want to live here but are forced by circumstances to leave pakistan for greener pastures in the west.

i couldnt make it today. i meet T every night at 2…

i couldnt make it today. i meet T every night at 2300 on msn messenger. but today i couldnt. i got late. i came home at 0230. DARN. i miss him. and i have nothing else to blog about. so i will just type the songs that i listen to tongiht as i sorf the net.

Nazia Hassan – Camera Camera

Chopin – Minute Waltz

Iqbal Bano – Muhabbat Karney Walay Kam Na Hon Gay

Jefferson Starship – Its not over till its over

U2 – Montgomerys Visit

Vivaldi – Winter

Engelbert – Love me like i love you

Fareeda Khanum – Chand Nikle Kisi Janib Teri Zebai Ka

Jagjit Singh – Zulmat Kade main meray

Scatman – Scatmans world

Mehdi Hasan – Pyar Bhare Do Sharmeelay Nain

Rolling Stones – It must be hell

Rafi – Khoya Khoya Chand

Indian Oldie – Saagar Kinare

a huge mixture of indian and pakistani movie music. along with south asian classical and semi classical music. and european classical music. and the new western music.

ill go now and let you listen to your own musics. ;)