Archive for February 24, 2004

Wow. I never thought this day would come. But a…

Wow.

I never thought this day would come. But after one night’s sleep. And within 24 hours of a depression taking over me. I am cool (not ‘kewl’ cool, ‘cool’ cool), calm and collected.

I am shocked that this time it did not take me two to three weeks to calm down.

GOD!

I think I must be growing up or something.

A very interesting experience indeed.

DAMN IT DAMN MY DAMNED Middle class moderate up…

DAMN IT

DAMN MY DAMNED Middle class moderate upbringing.

DAMN my parents for teaching me that honour and respect come above money and that sex ourside marriage is wrong.

DAMN the fact that I am a 23 year old virgin. Too conscious of doing something wrong that I did not take the first step.

DAMN the fact that I am never able to make a first move.

DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN.

DAMN the fact that I will never find anyone.

DAMN it all.

What the fuck is the use anyways.

Confound it …. every guy I seem to like and try …

Confound it …. every guy I seem to like and try to talk to turns out to be in love with someone else.

GODDAMN IT!

I am on the edge of being angry. Next time if I actually get angry. You might get some very open and uncensored Urdu expletives. Something to look forward to.