Archive for firsts

Making Out

Tuesday – 27 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 04 Bhadra 1925 – 26 August 2003

*rather explicit sexual content coming up, proceed only if you are interested in gay sexual activities*

well the last post was sudden. he had just left. i was VERY shaken after the whole thing. and i was excited as hell. hence the post.

well here it is. i wont tell who it was but it was someone whome i had known for a long time. well he knows i am gay. and he always jokes about it. so do i. that was until today. i was just lounging around. he was there.

suddenly he comes to where i am sitting and starts to caress my chest. i was like WHOA ! what the FUCK ! i didnt say it i only thought it.

the thing is i have known him long enough that there is nothing there. i dont feel anything for him. although he is VERY cute.

well so i didnt stop him. he played a little. caressing on my chest and arms. i was too big a slut to stop him.

well i got too turned on and i played around with him as well. we did this for some time.

then he suddenly took off his shirt. another WHOA ! and what the FUCK ! but again. too big a slut to stop another man from enjoying sexual activities with me.

well after some time i decided to caress him as well. i did for 1 minute then he told me. jalal you know. xyz is better at this than you are. this was the defining moment. the test. the poiint where i should have made a stand.

but like i said. too big a slut. i didnt even mind him saying that i continued. i am a BIG slut.

well after a while i noticed myself taking off my shirt. i was lying on my back. a point to keep in mind. when you are lying on your back. you CANNOT take off a tshirt easily. it takes a LOT of pulling and pushing. well i did manage to take it off eventually. by that time i have proven to myself that i am a moron and cannot take off my own shirt.

well then we played around for another 30 mins. ;) then we kissed ;)

I KNOW !!!

we kissed for about 1 min. then we all of a sudden broke into convulsive laughter. and stopped. we put on our clothes.

so i have lost half of my virginity. but my cherry(if i may call it that) is still intact ;0 waiting to be lost.

so i have shared with you completely my first time when i did stuff with a guy. although there is no future. it is just sex. but it was nice. thank god he also knows this. so there are no issues left over.

well now that i have shared all this with you. then the two people who couldnt control themselves and forced me to tell mine have to tell me their stories as well of thier first times.

also those of you who think there was too much detail ;) well when i will have first i will give details but within reasonable limits. :) no name calling and no tedious(sic) explanations :)

oh and after listening to me. one of my very good friends told me. that i am the biggest slut in asia ;) YAY! first in 3.5 billion humans :) that has GOT to be a record. ;)

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Kissing

Tuesday – 27 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 04 Bhadra 1925 – 26 August 2003

OH MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!! ON MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!! OH MY GOD !!!

ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!! ALLAH !!!

I MADE OUT TODAY !!! VERY VERY UNEXPECTED !!! VERY VERY !!! I NEVER SAW IT COMING !!!!!!!!!

WE KISSED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALSO WE CARESSED AND CUDDLED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM NOT A VIRGIN ANY MORE !!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boyfriend

Tuesday – 06 Jamadi us Sani 1424 – 14 Sravana 1925 – 05 August 2003  

well in case someone(read A.A) missed this. i already have a boyfriend. A.A. so i am taken.

you happy now A.A. and yes for gods sake leave a comment. all other boyfriends do that.

for those of you who dont know about this. i met A.A. on mirc. liked him instantly. and shockingly he liked me as well. he was the first person that i knew on mirc who i told about my blog. he is the first person who i have sent a picture with a motive in mind. actually i am doign that as i write this. this coming a paranoid freak like me is shocking. also i am going to call him soon ;). another big big break for a paranoid freak like me.

so thats it. bye now. ill post later.

Blogger

Tuesday – 28 Jamadi ul Awwal 1424 – 07 Sravana 1925 – 29 July 2003

OH MY GOD !!! it is true. i have found another gay blogger from karachi !!!!! there are others like me in this world. i am not alone !!! i am not alone !!! well it is a relief. it is like being on a desolate island without any people. looking for people . andsuddenly after being all alone for two months. you see a human walking. and it is the utmost of relief and happiness. and tears of joy. well maybe i am making a bit toooooo dramatic. but what the hell. it is a nice nice nice thing to see someone else like me.

and you know what. he wrote the most flattering of comments about me. he said that he fell in love with me “swoon” he also liked my about me page “swoon” and he is from karachi. and he blogs too. there are only about 20-30 bloggers in karachi that is what i figure. this is so wonderful. his pseudonym is danial.

Basics

Friday – 17 Jamadi ul Awwal 1424 – 27 Asadh 1925 – 18 July 2003 

Basic Information

name : jalaluddin ahmed khan (DUH! of course it is not real. just a pseudonym)

age : 22

sex : male

orientation : gay

location : pakistan

city : karachi

neighbourhood : north nazimabad

self description : funny, smart, cute, sexy, educated, compassionate and flawless (of course i am exaggerating)

looking for : funny, smart, cute, sexy, educated, compassionate and flawless (of course i know i am being unreasonable)

Odyssey

Friday – 17 Jamadi ul Awwal 1424 – 27 Asadh 1925 – 18 July 2003

100 point odyssey through my life. no particular order. CAUTION : proceed at your own risk.

001 – i am an idiot to think that any of you will like to read this list here. but i am posting it all the same because like i said i am an idiot.

002 – like old nostalgic songs on tv

003 – like to listen to south asian classical music (raagas for those who dont know what i am talking about)

004 – my friends and our friendship is very important for me

005 – use english spellings rather than american spellings

006 – like the sound of azaan for maghrib

007 – my fake sex buddy is david fumero

008 – like to listen to ghazals

009 – people who follow soap operas for more than 3 years should be relocated and not allowed to see that soap any more

010 – have fallen in love once and fallen out of it as well (after being dumped)

011 – the college majors that i wanted to do at some time in my life included architecture, history and urdu

012 – often say ‘aray!’ and also ‘oh my god!’

013 – favourite character on the tv serial friends is phoebe, frasier is niels, everybody loves raymond is deborah

014 – dislike violence and war

015 – like pictures of beaches in latin american countries (wow they are a HOT people)

016 – for me the biggest turn on is a ‘man’ (masculine and wild)

017 – for me the biggest turn off is if someone uses a linguistically incorrect sentence or if they talk in a bad accent (no hard and fast rules. i decide which accent is good or bad)

018 – i seriously dislike if someone uses wrong grammar in urdu or english

019 – i seriously dislike if someone uses wrong pronunciation in urdu or english

020 – i seriously dislike if someone has a bad accent (bad by my standards not any specific standard)

021 – very attracted to policemen. specially uniformed policemen from america and europe

022 – i can understand written french, farsi and arabi crudely

023 – like to watch satellite images and aerial images of the earth and different parts of it (yes you are right. i am a big big freak)

023 – humour i like. satire or wit? satire.

025 – favourite modern time and place combinations. paris under the sun king. dehli under shah jahan. vienna at the time of mozart. london under queen victoria. berlin 1938ad. new york now. karachi now. (i also fantasize a lot about these)

026 – favourite english tv shows are friends, everybody loves raymond, frasier, drew carey show, sex and the city, 3rd rock from the sun, star trek (next generation, original, enterprise)

027 – when i went to the us i used to sit besides a lake a lot. the lake and its beaches were private property but noone lived on this side of the lake. i used to go in because i wouldnt be intruding on anyone. i was caught trespassing by a cop. i have this thing about cops and i had this huge thing about him at that time. to save myself from trouble i had to act as if i cant speak english at all. he checked my passport and let me go. of course i couldnt ask him out. i am such an idiot.

028 – favourite job would be that where i get to live in many different cities and countries all over the world

029 – currently unemployed and looking for a job (this might change from 21-07-2003)

030 – dislike bigotry and intolerance (by the way i am told that i am a bigot)

031 – mehdi hasan is my all time favourite composer, musician and singer. he has the best voice of all humans that sing. (he is capable of giving me an orgasm just by his music)

032 – my fake boyfriend is colin farell

033 – birthday is on the 15th of september (i wonder why they dont call it ides of september)

034 – ethnic background is south asian sub group pakistani sub group urdu speaking sub group up-ite sub group yousufzai pathan

035 – dont have any tatoos yet. but i am thinking about getting one (at times it is a turn on at times it isnt )

036 – like the following comics bizarro, baby blues, wizard of id, rose is rose, the gambols

037 – favourite foods include haleem, biryani, paay, puloa and nihari (yes i am a glutton)

038 – have had a love affair over the internet with a guy in america from ohio. i know how he likes his eggs. i also know what he wants to name his daughter. i have no contact with him since july 2002 (when he stopped replying to my emails all of a sudden. i dont know if he is ok or not)

039 – have been doused in water 4 times in restauraunts by women. women dont like my male chauvinist pig attitude. i dont have one.

040 – people who think that putting out will ge them love are not completely wrong

041 – interested in history, movies, literature, music, art, news and politcs (no i am not dull in real life also I consider these interests a plus in the man of my choice)

042 – prefer fruit juices over water. water over milk. milk over coke(read carbonated drinks). coke(read carbonated drinks) over nothing

043 – once there was a cold rainy day. i had to go to my room in my university and i got wet due to rain. when i reached the dorm the door was locked. i coudlnt find my key. i needed to pee like hell. i tried to find a loo for half an hour. i was desperate. suddenly. i let all those muscles and ducts and everything free. i stopped trying to stop it. and moment i let go was the most relaxing moment of my life. although i agree it was the most disgusting thing anyone had ever blogged about. but it was the most relaxing moment ever (for those of you who might stop loving me after this please don’t. this was a once in a life time thing. It will never happen again.)

044 – have a bachelors in computer engineering

045 – i am 6 ft tall or about 184 cms tall

046 – there has been only once that i met a guy who was also gay and interested in me. we both liked each other on sight. we went for dinner. it was my first and only date. i was very nervous. to the extent that at one time i spoke without breathing for 15 minutes. we never had any contact after that. i am such an idiotic buffoon.

047 – favourite musicians/composers are mehdi hasan, ravi shanker, bare ghulam ali, eric clapton, beethoven, tchaikovski

048 – dislike wearing suits and ties

049 – of the seven sins my favourite is lust

050 – favourite ancient time and place combinations. memphis under khufu, mohenjodaro 2000bc, persepolis under xerxes, athens under pericles and rome under julius caesar

051 – i am a virgin (no it is not a lie! i am a virgin! i didnt find the right person yet)

052 – spend an immeasurable amount of time on the internet

053 – shortcomings in someone. nagging or stupidity? nagging.

054 – all time favourite newspaper is ‘dawn’ from karachi pakistan (read it daily and love its format and content)

055 – sometimes when you are sitting with friends and someone cracks a very good joke someone on the table might spew all the drink out in a geyser. i once cracked a joke that was so funny that two people sitting opposite each other did it at the same time. giving me a view of two geysers going in opposite directions at the same time. so i am 1 of 9 humans to have seen something like that in the last 10 years.

056 – sports that i play include swimming, cricket and horse riding

057 – dislike narrow minded people

058 – some of the urdu writers that i like are saadat hasan manto, ahmed nadeem qasmi, ibn e insha, bano qudsia

059 – have black eyes

060 – once had a chance to get either my or my best friends grade improved in college. i got his grade improved. never told him.

061 – likes in others. beauty or brains? both

062 – i have two blogs. one for the gay man that i am. one for the straight man that i have to pretend to be

063 – once spent a whole day in my university to find at the end of the day that my jeans were ripped at an awkward location. noone ever jokingly called me a girl in college after that day. even if i said that i like romantic comedies and want to have manicure and pedicures and facials for the rest of my life. believe me i once said that just to check. i wasnt called a girl. i was called effeminate.

064 – some of the urdu poets that i like are ghalib, mir, faiz, momin

065 – favourite weather is overcast with slightly darkish clouds (kaali ghata), mild breeze, light rain and sunlight breaking through the colouds far away

066 – dislike fanatics and fundamentalists

067 – love watching statisics and facts and figures. Love stock quotes and other figures and statistics that keep changing with time

068 – favourite times of the day are dawn(early morning) and dusk(late evening)

069 – honour is more important than money

070 – currently living with family (like all normal pakistanis my age)

071 – zodiac sign is virgo

072 – once got up at 4 am just to help my friend finish a project while he went to sleep till 8am.

073 – once screamed like a girl during an earthquake. after the quake made fun of another friend and “his” scream. everyone still thinks that other guy was the one who screamed (i know i am a devil in disguise)

074 – born in karachi

075 – favourite medieval time and place combinations. venice in its glory. dehli in the time of amir khusrau. samarkand under amir taimur. cordova in 1000ad. baghdad under harun ur rasheed.

076 – current dating status is that i am available and searching for someone right for me (yeah right! who isnt)

077 – like the smell of burning incense

078 – dislike the political right

079 – some of the english books that i liked very much les miserables, passage to india, war and peace, the god of small things, lord of the flies

080 – there is no 80 because there are two 23s.

081 – my fake girlfriend is brooke shields

082 – sometimes, i write poetry in urdu

083 – got my penis stuck in the zipper only once in my life. i was 9 at that time. it wasn’t bad and i was saved a lot of problems

084 – favourite urdu tv dramas waris, tanhaaiyan, aangan terha, chaand girehn

085 – like the smell when the first drops of rain fall on the dry ground (soondhi soondhi mitti ki khushboo)

086 – a girl once asked me to marry her. we didnt know each other well at that time. actually we had just spent less than three days with each other all our lives. i fell down and died. i later learned that she says that often. she uses it instead of fuck off.

087 – college majors that i wish i had taken when i was in college international relations, political science, south asian classical music

088 – prefer to use english dates (ddmmyy) rather than american dates(mmddyy)

089 – once i was buying something from a convenience store. when i went to the payment counter there was another guy there. i was about 17 he was about 25. he was SO SO SO hot. well as i walked upto him he looked at me. i accidentally said ‘wow!’ while looking at him. i said ‘wow!’ while looking at him. he got flustered and left. i never forgot i said ‘wow!’. i am such an idiot.

090 – hair colour is black

091 – love this urdu movie ‘anand’

092 – i would rate money after honour, integrity, honesty, relationships, family, friends and education

093 – like good music

094 – don’t have any piercings and probably wont get any either

095 – once my best friend had to hold a whole sports event. so i helped him for five days in planning and implementing everything in that plan. didnt sleep more than 3 hours on any one of those days. then on the last day i fucked up and forgot to go get the guests. no event that year. sorry S.M.

096 – urdu and english are my first languages. i think in both of them.

097 – favourite international cities to live in would be paris, new york, istanbul, cairo, rome, san francisco in that order

098 – some english movies that i liked very much amadeus, shakespeare in love, contact, an ideal husband, gone with the wind, star trek(all of them), legends of the fall, gandhi, jinnah, the courtesan

099 – really dislike spam

100 – if you read through the whole list you are even more bored than i was while i wrote it. you also need a life. maybe less than me but all the same. or maybe you are interested in me. in which case you can drop me a line. oh my good! I really need a life

Introduction

Tuesday – 14 Jamadi ul Awwal 1424 – 24 Asadh 1925 – 15 July 2003 

since you guys dont know me so well i thought id tell you guys a little about myself. i am 22. from karachi pakistan. i am gay. very gay. completely gay. also i am a virgin. ok guys please close your mouths. those who jumped through the ceiling please climb down.

well i never foung the right guy. someone who would be cute and humorous and smart and well educated. maybe i was too afraid to try. i am afraid of being caught. gays in pakistan go through all forms of hell. well so that said. i am a virgin.

i have moved about a lot. karachi, islamabad and quetta. i have also been to the US and Saudi Arabia and lived there for a few months. i have finished my undergrad and i am looking for a job right now. i am about to start going to office in a few weeks because i think i might get a job this week.

i have fallen in love once. it was completely platonic. after i opened up completely to him. he dumped me. i have fallen out of love once. nothing like losing ones confidence in oneself.

i have had a one month long cyber relationship. he was an american from ohio. his nick on mirc was steve25usa. i fell for him. his favourite colour for clothing was green because it matched his eyes. suddenly he went extinct. no email. no irc. for one year. never met him since.

i lost my cyber virginity about two years ago. he was a latino from mexico. school teacher. (yeah i know :)!). well after we did it. he said bye. i told him he was my first. he said bye. he was the first pig i met. ive met many since. but they dont bother me so much now.

i love falling for people. i love having crushes on people. i usually have one or two crushes lying somewhere in my mind. helps me keep at it :).

although it is hard for most other humans but i like cyber relationships. maybe that is because i am too afraid to go for the real thing. well whatever. lets see where things lead me to. so for all of you. if there are any. who are reading this. you know where i am at on this issue.

thats about it for me for now. maybe ill keep telling you about all the other details later.