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Clashing Sounds

Sunday – 09 Rajab 1424 – 16 Bhadra 1925 – 07 September 2003  

i was told that i am a freak 5 mins ago. by my mom. i was listening to my music. usually the problem is that childrean listen to NEW forms of music and parents dont like that. here. i listen to classical forms of music and my mom calls it a cacophony of clamourous sounds. go figure.

well i listen to classical and semi classical south asian music. the raaga. the ghazal. the thumri. the geet. now that the background is done i will proceed.

currently everyone at my home laughs at my music and calls me dead man. lots of eye rolling and messaging about it all the time. that is not it. except for everyone in my house. everyone i know in person laughs at it as well. it seems that my music is so strange that everyone laughs at it. my musical choice has been the topic of many a joke and comment even places where i wasnt present.

well this is ovbviously depressing. i havent come across any one after my university who is nearly my age by about 20 years and shares my musical taste. well i dont know what to say. their loss. a man screaming your loss in the face of 100 % of the other people his age and beloging to his country.

what the FUCK! is wrong with me. why the FUCK do i listen to classical or semi classical music. when people laugh at it and say who died why are you listening to this. and people have actually started laughing when i told them what i listen to. i mean come on. i think given a choice the social stigma will be more for me due to what i listen than due even to my sexual orientation.

oh he is gay … too bad … but he is a nice person.

WHAT !!! he is 22 and he listens to ghazals and raagas … KEEP AWAY FROM HIM !!! i dont want you mixing with people like that.

i am terribly depressed. i seem to be fond of something that can only be seen as an affliction. it is so horrible and terrifying that people shy away from it. it is so ridiculously funny that people laugh alond at its mention. what the FUCK!!!

i am very very depressed. i cant be gay. now i cant listen to my music. why the hell cant i get even a small break. what the FUCK!!! music DAMNIT it is only MUSIC !!!

Morons

Friday – 24 Jamadi ul Awwal 1424 – 03 Sravana 1925 – 25 July 2003 

first of all i am laughing right now. at my own naivity. when i actually managed to write “so i have managed to write the most psychologically insane post ever in the history of blogging.” so now goes the even insaner(if there is such a word) post.

i have asked the permission of the guy. also try to read it through every line has its own beauty.

msn messenger. immedately after my previous post.

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:i see your journal

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:ya

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:and from that i added u

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:ohk …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:what did you search for ?

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:i saw ur atricle

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:oh …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:which one ?

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:aool.blogspot.com ?

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:ok

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:ya

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:who u wrote that

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:yep … that is my work

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:do u have gaystories

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:reall

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:have you even left a comment ?

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:thats great

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:no …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:i dont do that …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:for that you should find the proper sites

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:no but u write little roodly

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:likewht

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:?

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:example … what was i rude about ?

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:listen

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:can u put my article

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:on ur site

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:yar …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:it is a blog

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:it is not a magazine …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:hey you know what …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:you should make your own blog

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:can u put mines in ur blog

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:no …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:well

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:why

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:a blog is like a diary …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:do people put other peoples things in their diry ..

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:no …

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:aacha u will but ur lover article in ur blog

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:?

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:what ?

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:aacha u will but ur lover article in ur blog

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:yar i am sorry i cannot understand what you are trying to say ….

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:oh are you talking about me mentioning you ???

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:no

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:i mean if ur lover say u to put his article in ur blog will u

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:no

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:i will make him get his own blog …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:but then again maybe i will …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:but 99 % i will make him his own blog

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says: then why not my

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:make one for me

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:because you are not my lover ….

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:DUH!

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:ok one thing ..

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:wht

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:you want me to mention you in my blog ?

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:ya

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:sure with my email

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:ahahhaha ok … i will do that …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:wait ill add a post right now …

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:ok

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:thanks

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:no problem

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:another thing …

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:yar you can give comments to my posts … and add your email and website to it as well …

u never Know who will fall in love with u from ur smile says:yamohsin

Jalaluddin Ahmed Khan says:ok

ok. i know i am being a bitch posting this. shows a complete lack to etiquette. but i do not think such things happen often. so i am sharing it with you.

and yes. his email address is mohsin807@hotmail.com. please do not harass him.

i am sure he must be one of those who searched for karachi gay sex on google and got my site somewhere in there. since a lot of porn has been banned in pakistan last month. maybe mine is the first site that opens. i actually get about 2 hits a day from such searches. go figure.