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Frozen Shoulder
Day 10,483 – Sunday – 07 Asadha 1930 – 04 Rajab ul Murajjab 1430 – 28 June 2009
I guess all of you guys will have to get used to the fact that I will, from now on, be blogging very irregularly, as in once a quarter or something. Work and other things in life have just become very extreme and do not allow enough time for blogging. I have no idea why, but that is how it is.
So, for now, I am going to have the following goals in life, I want to learn how to speak French and Farsi and I want to learn Horseriding, Swordfighting, Archery and Shooting and I want to be able to write regularly and I want to have a top of the line caravan that I can spend the rest of my life travelling in.
And, I want to have emotion free sex with millions of strangers in exotic cities, locations and places.
But, one does not get everything one wants, and one must learn to live as they are.
In other news, one of the reasons for not blogging for the past three months would be the fear elicited by the fact that my blog has been quoted in both an Indian newspaper / online news source, and now and American one. The closet door is being banged at very hard. For all the actions where I have come out of the closet to my family and friends does not mean that I am ready to do it officially. Not in Pakistan. I can not. Sorry. So, since this blog has started coming into international media showcasing Pakistani homosexuals, I would have to request you people to at least not try to knock on the closet door.
From this I would wonder why we even use the term closet door? Why?
And I will leave you to that.
Oh and yes, the guy who plays Kirk in the new Star Trek, Chris Pine. Fucking yummy.
Movement
Day 10,059 – Sunday – 10 Chaitra 1930 – 21 Rabi ul Awwal 1429 – 30 March 2008
So, I went to see two apartments. Fucking sucked. Dirty, dingy, stuffy, smelly hovels! So, I have given my estate agent (definitely non cute, 3 on a scale of 0 to 100) a list of what we want, me, and my friend. And, again, so how seriously fucking difficult is to tell someone directions to a place. What the fuck does turn right from Teen Talwar mean? There are four roads going up to Teel Talwar. I can take a right on any one of them. Oh, oh, yes, right, the road called Road X? Right. It is a two way fucking road, I can take a right and go to two opposing roads. Moron! Oh, ok, the road going from A to B take a right. Thank you. Brainless twit! After this conversation the estate agent was downgraded to a 2.
I saw a movie Cloverfield. Amazing. Good. This is exactly what I needed. A large number of additions to the list of psychological disorders that I already have. It is bad enough that I can not sleep in the dark because I am afraid of God knows what. It is bad enough that I have over a period of time become so psychotic that in any possible reality I can see at least five to ten different alternate realities, which have by now become very regular and at times seem more real than the reality around me. And then, I, Mr Moron, go ahead and watch Cloverfield. I have avoided all movies classfied as Horror for the past two to three years, and then I do this. How much is my IQ again? Equivalent to that of a rather stupid chicken?
Oh and yes, I have another amazing idea on how I want to lead my life. I want to buy a horse, sit on it, and ride away. And keep riding for the rest of my life. And write, while I am not riding. I want to travel the world on horseback like everyone’s ancestors. Yeah, right, as if the idea of spending the rest of my life in a Zepplein/Blimp was not preposterous enough. And yes, as any normal / sane person might have guessed. There are two other idea. In one, I have a Caravan. And in the other a large boat.
Dont, look at me, talk to Jalal. He is the crazy one.
Exposure
Thursday – 23 Zilhaj 1428 – 14 Pausa 1929 – 03 January 2008
I have no fucking idea why, but for some reason this post on my weblog will have to be read in a proper British accent, since that is how I have been reading and writing it.
Last night, I was restless, I wanted to be exposed to new ideas and experiences. Either due to, or, in spite of my weight and physical odiousness I ended up being exposed to new ideas. I ended up watching two movies last night. I liked both of them.
First I saw Ratatouille and fell in love with Anton Ego. In love. And by love, here, I mean, butterflies, spring, meadows, gargoyles and the Seine. The whole package, love and psychosis.
After that I saw The Squid and the Whale and I found it absolutely amazing. Amazing. So, whosoever reads this, is directed, to first designate me as the image of masculine beauty and perfection in the deepest core of their existence, and then, to definitely do go and watch this movie. Preferably followed by a quick and beautiful snog.
As if this was not enough, I picked up a book of short stories and read an absolutely amazing piece of distilled beauty. Aldous Huxley. The Gioconda Smile. This time around, you are ordered to stop reading this moronic rambling of a twenty-some-thing psychotic homosexual idiot from Karachi and get the book. Buy it. Download it. Borrow it. Or steal it. But; get it now. Shoo.
Or, you can find it here.
Renascence
Monday – 18 Ramazan 1428 – 09 Asvina 1929 – 01 October 2007
Ok, so, I am back. Same fucking stupid old me. Hiding behind a barrage of moronic jokes, embarrasing aphorisms, terse diatribes and subtle satires. And of course add a smidgen of sarcasm, vice, stupidity, psychosis and a whole lotta Jalal and we are back to normal. No more psychological breakdowns over why I am a pansy and why won’t my family accept me as a flower or fruit or whatever it is that you people are calling it nowadays. I will not sulk. I absolutely refuse to sulk and live in a vegetative state gaining weight and feeling sorry for not having ever the liberty to live like I want. I will live life to its fullest. Starting from now. After I watch Transformers that it.
Even though I am engaged and will be getting married in the summers next year and will start to have kids “as soon as naturally possible” and have as many kids as our limbs can hold, I feel a very strong overpowering urge to keep a pet. Something strong and manly yet docile. So it is like da mayn. But, I am it’s lord. Oh dear, I have gone too far havent I. Yes, yes, I know I need to go hunting or have a fist fight on a road or something because my innate latent violence hormones are raging in my blood right now. And, as per past definitions of yours truly I am completely against violence. I think I need to be spanked properly tonight.
Oh, and yes, this is just so seriously not about Transformers. I mean, the stupid high school guy, the brain less army guy and of course Optimus Prime. None of them was cute enough to grab my attention to the screen. Of course the story line of a movie like that can not be better for the brain than lets say eating shredded plastic strips can be for your stomach. And, oh, my, fucking, God, those stupid fucking brain dead imbecile comments like “There is more to them that meets the eye”, “why are you here” and “what do you want” with the fucking camera giving close ups of the actors who are bathed in sunlight as if they have asked something important. You stupid fucks. I used to think about more profound things when I used to contemplate my vomit at age 3. Who the fuck wrote the script for you. Can you please ask him to read my blog: in a rating of proper English, depth of thought, profoundity and ability to communicate properly it ranks 12,883,789,783,838,239,283 amongst all English documents produced to date including scribbles from first graders and sentences spelled out by animals running on snow while pissing. And, it’s writer thinks that your writer sucks like a baby calf about to die of thirst.
The action scenes were very good, but they were too fast. I am sure I would get a better rush if I can see something move rather than see hunks of metal flap about faster than I can move. I mean, have you ever seen women flick their eyes at men. Eyes can move fast! But if I can’t keep up with Optimus Fucking Prime being smashed across my screen, there is something seriously wrong with how the movie is thought out. And for God’s sake can you put in some sort of a hot guy and a hot girl and make them show a little bit of skin so people dont just get up and walk out of your movie. Morons. But, all in all, I think I found the guy’s car robot quite attractive. Does this make me weird?
Wow! I feel so much better now.
Singing in the Rain
Wednesday – 29 Jamadi ul Awwal 1424 – 08 Sravana 1925 – 30 July 2003
hmmmmm. it is still raining. the city is in a mess. there a complete collapse of civilization as we know it here in karachi. the roads have borken into a million(more) potholes. floods ravage the city. vultures scavenge for dead meat that people might throw out in fear of disease. OH MY GOD ! i have to calm down i am being SO SO SO SO SO overdramatic.
well i went to this government and saw a very interesting thing. there on the window was a list of things that i needed to bring in order to get the work done. and below the list of 5 things was urdu “note : waqt bachanay kay liye fuzool sawalat say gurey karein” english translation “note : to save time please refrain from asking useless questions” loolz. laughed like hell at that. the guy behind the counter thought i was a wacko. so i had to act like one. he really hurried up with my paperwork. loolz.
well i am home again. and it is raining. my cousin is screaming at me to type lighter as he cannot sleep. i am still typing on being a bitch. he has a paper to submit so he was up all night. also he didnt turn down the music for me while i slept. so i am getting back at him. i am such a bitch.
also i got a webcam installed yesterday. i cannot wait to think of the possibilities. ;). i am a bitch ;). also i liked it at first but i hate it now. its picture quality leaves a lot to be desired. well what the hell at least i can talk to my bf (who happens to live in the same city) like every normal gay guy. wait a minute. cut the last sentence. it makes me sound like i need to cast in the next psycho movie.
so until next time. i will leave you all alone with your thoughts not mine. so as to let some sanity prevail on this little group of sorry folk who end up having to read my blog.
also i saw vanilla sky. maybe that is the reason this blog is so frikking psychotic.
Odyssey
Friday – 17 Jamadi ul Awwal 1424 – 27 Asadh 1925 – 18 July 2003
100 point odyssey through my life. no particular order. CAUTION : proceed at your own risk.
001 – i am an idiot to think that any of you will like to read this list here. but i am posting it all the same because like i said i am an idiot.
002 – like old nostalgic songs on tv
003 – like to listen to south asian classical music (raagas for those who dont know what i am talking about)
004 – my friends and our friendship is very important for me
005 – use english spellings rather than american spellings
006 – like the sound of azaan for maghrib
007 – my fake sex buddy is david fumero
008 – like to listen to ghazals
009 – people who follow soap operas for more than 3 years should be relocated and not allowed to see that soap any more
010 – have fallen in love once and fallen out of it as well (after being dumped)
011 – the college majors that i wanted to do at some time in my life included architecture, history and urdu
012 – often say ‘aray!’ and also ‘oh my god!’
013 – favourite character on the tv serial friends is phoebe, frasier is niels, everybody loves raymond is deborah
014 – dislike violence and war
015 – like pictures of beaches in latin american countries (wow they are a HOT people)
016 – for me the biggest turn on is a ‘man’ (masculine and wild)
017 – for me the biggest turn off is if someone uses a linguistically incorrect sentence or if they talk in a bad accent (no hard and fast rules. i decide which accent is good or bad)
018 – i seriously dislike if someone uses wrong grammar in urdu or english
019 – i seriously dislike if someone uses wrong pronunciation in urdu or english
020 – i seriously dislike if someone has a bad accent (bad by my standards not any specific standard)
021 – very attracted to policemen. specially uniformed policemen from america and europe
022 – i can understand written french, farsi and arabi crudely
023 – like to watch satellite images and aerial images of the earth and different parts of it (yes you are right. i am a big big freak)
023 – humour i like. satire or wit? satire.
025 – favourite modern time and place combinations. paris under the sun king. dehli under shah jahan. vienna at the time of mozart. london under queen victoria. berlin 1938ad. new york now. karachi now. (i also fantasize a lot about these)
026 – favourite english tv shows are friends, everybody loves raymond, frasier, drew carey show, sex and the city, 3rd rock from the sun, star trek (next generation, original, enterprise)
027 – when i went to the us i used to sit besides a lake a lot. the lake and its beaches were private property but noone lived on this side of the lake. i used to go in because i wouldnt be intruding on anyone. i was caught trespassing by a cop. i have this thing about cops and i had this huge thing about him at that time. to save myself from trouble i had to act as if i cant speak english at all. he checked my passport and let me go. of course i couldnt ask him out. i am such an idiot.
028 – favourite job would be that where i get to live in many different cities and countries all over the world
029 – currently unemployed and looking for a job (this might change from 21-07-2003)
030 – dislike bigotry and intolerance (by the way i am told that i am a bigot)
031 – mehdi hasan is my all time favourite composer, musician and singer. he has the best voice of all humans that sing. (he is capable of giving me an orgasm just by his music)
032 – my fake boyfriend is colin farell
033 – birthday is on the 15th of september (i wonder why they dont call it ides of september)
034 – ethnic background is south asian sub group pakistani sub group urdu speaking sub group up-ite sub group yousufzai pathan
035 – dont have any tatoos yet. but i am thinking about getting one (at times it is a turn on at times it isnt )
036 – like the following comics bizarro, baby blues, wizard of id, rose is rose, the gambols
037 – favourite foods include haleem, biryani, paay, puloa and nihari (yes i am a glutton)
038 – have had a love affair over the internet with a guy in america from ohio. i know how he likes his eggs. i also know what he wants to name his daughter. i have no contact with him since july 2002 (when he stopped replying to my emails all of a sudden. i dont know if he is ok or not)
039 – have been doused in water 4 times in restauraunts by women. women dont like my male chauvinist pig attitude. i dont have one.
040 – people who think that putting out will ge them love are not completely wrong
041 – interested in history, movies, literature, music, art, news and politcs (no i am not dull in real life also I consider these interests a plus in the man of my choice)
042 – prefer fruit juices over water. water over milk. milk over coke(read carbonated drinks). coke(read carbonated drinks) over nothing
043 – once there was a cold rainy day. i had to go to my room in my university and i got wet due to rain. when i reached the dorm the door was locked. i coudlnt find my key. i needed to pee like hell. i tried to find a loo for half an hour. i was desperate. suddenly. i let all those muscles and ducts and everything free. i stopped trying to stop it. and moment i let go was the most relaxing moment of my life. although i agree it was the most disgusting thing anyone had ever blogged about. but it was the most relaxing moment ever (for those of you who might stop loving me after this please don’t. this was a once in a life time thing. It will never happen again.)
044 – have a bachelors in computer engineering
045 – i am 6 ft tall or about 184 cms tall
046 – there has been only once that i met a guy who was also gay and interested in me. we both liked each other on sight. we went for dinner. it was my first and only date. i was very nervous. to the extent that at one time i spoke without breathing for 15 minutes. we never had any contact after that. i am such an idiotic buffoon.
047 – favourite musicians/composers are mehdi hasan, ravi shanker, bare ghulam ali, eric clapton, beethoven, tchaikovski
048 – dislike wearing suits and ties
049 – of the seven sins my favourite is lust
050 – favourite ancient time and place combinations. memphis under khufu, mohenjodaro 2000bc, persepolis under xerxes, athens under pericles and rome under julius caesar
051 – i am a virgin (no it is not a lie! i am a virgin! i didnt find the right person yet)
052 – spend an immeasurable amount of time on the internet
053 – shortcomings in someone. nagging or stupidity? nagging.
054 – all time favourite newspaper is ‘dawn’ from karachi pakistan (read it daily and love its format and content)
055 – sometimes when you are sitting with friends and someone cracks a very good joke someone on the table might spew all the drink out in a geyser. i once cracked a joke that was so funny that two people sitting opposite each other did it at the same time. giving me a view of two geysers going in opposite directions at the same time. so i am 1 of 9 humans to have seen something like that in the last 10 years.
056 – sports that i play include swimming, cricket and horse riding
057 – dislike narrow minded people
058 – some of the urdu writers that i like are saadat hasan manto, ahmed nadeem qasmi, ibn e insha, bano qudsia
059 – have black eyes
060 – once had a chance to get either my or my best friends grade improved in college. i got his grade improved. never told him.
061 – likes in others. beauty or brains? both
062 – i have two blogs. one for the gay man that i am. one for the straight man that i have to pretend to be
063 – once spent a whole day in my university to find at the end of the day that my jeans were ripped at an awkward location. noone ever jokingly called me a girl in college after that day. even if i said that i like romantic comedies and want to have manicure and pedicures and facials for the rest of my life. believe me i once said that just to check. i wasnt called a girl. i was called effeminate.
064 – some of the urdu poets that i like are ghalib, mir, faiz, momin
065 – favourite weather is overcast with slightly darkish clouds (kaali ghata), mild breeze, light rain and sunlight breaking through the colouds far away
066 – dislike fanatics and fundamentalists
067 – love watching statisics and facts and figures. Love stock quotes and other figures and statistics that keep changing with time
068 – favourite times of the day are dawn(early morning) and dusk(late evening)
069 – honour is more important than money
070 – currently living with family (like all normal pakistanis my age)
071 – zodiac sign is virgo
072 – once got up at 4 am just to help my friend finish a project while he went to sleep till 8am.
073 – once screamed like a girl during an earthquake. after the quake made fun of another friend and “his” scream. everyone still thinks that other guy was the one who screamed (i know i am a devil in disguise)
074 – born in karachi
075 – favourite medieval time and place combinations. venice in its glory. dehli in the time of amir khusrau. samarkand under amir taimur. cordova in 1000ad. baghdad under harun ur rasheed.
076 – current dating status is that i am available and searching for someone right for me (yeah right! who isnt)
077 – like the smell of burning incense
078 – dislike the political right
079 – some of the english books that i liked very much les miserables, passage to india, war and peace, the god of small things, lord of the flies
080 – there is no 80 because there are two 23s.
081 – my fake girlfriend is brooke shields
082 – sometimes, i write poetry in urdu
083 – got my penis stuck in the zipper only once in my life. i was 9 at that time. it wasn’t bad and i was saved a lot of problems
084 – favourite urdu tv dramas waris, tanhaaiyan, aangan terha, chaand girehn
085 – like the smell when the first drops of rain fall on the dry ground (soondhi soondhi mitti ki khushboo)
086 – a girl once asked me to marry her. we didnt know each other well at that time. actually we had just spent less than three days with each other all our lives. i fell down and died. i later learned that she says that often. she uses it instead of fuck off.
087 – college majors that i wish i had taken when i was in college international relations, political science, south asian classical music
088 – prefer to use english dates (ddmmyy) rather than american dates(mmddyy)
089 – once i was buying something from a convenience store. when i went to the payment counter there was another guy there. i was about 17 he was about 25. he was SO SO SO hot. well as i walked upto him he looked at me. i accidentally said ‘wow!’ while looking at him. i said ‘wow!’ while looking at him. he got flustered and left. i never forgot i said ‘wow!’. i am such an idiot.
090 – hair colour is black
091 – love this urdu movie ‘anand’
092 – i would rate money after honour, integrity, honesty, relationships, family, friends and education
093 – like good music
094 – don’t have any piercings and probably wont get any either
095 – once my best friend had to hold a whole sports event. so i helped him for five days in planning and implementing everything in that plan. didnt sleep more than 3 hours on any one of those days. then on the last day i fucked up and forgot to go get the guests. no event that year. sorry S.M.
096 – urdu and english are my first languages. i think in both of them.
097 – favourite international cities to live in would be paris, new york, istanbul, cairo, rome, san francisco in that order
098 – some english movies that i liked very much amadeus, shakespeare in love, contact, an ideal husband, gone with the wind, star trek(all of them), legends of the fall, gandhi, jinnah, the courtesan
099 – really dislike spam
100 – if you read through the whole list you are even more bored than i was while i wrote it. you also need a life. maybe less than me but all the same. or maybe you are interested in me. in which case you can drop me a line. oh my good! I really need a life
Tuzk e Jalali 